CHRISTMAS...

was hectic, as always. I don't know what it is about Christmas that turns me off. Once a year, I am forced to be around a bunch of relatives that I haven't seen since (take a guess!) last Christmas. To be more specific, it's my mother's side of the family that I avoid. For some reason (one that will take far too long to explain) my mother's side of the family hates each other, but once a year we slap on a smile and pretend to care what the other is up to. Why pretend?

But then again, I really enjoyed Christmas with my father's side of the family. Even though I don't see them as much either, I feel like my father's side actually gives a shit about me. Or maybe everyone just pretended due to the fact that my father has been in and out of the hospital for months. Who knows?

This was a hard Christmas for my family financially. I feel terrible that I go to UMass Amerst when I could be saving my family thousands by living at home and going to UMass Dartmouth. My dad is on long term disability, and I know he's having a hard time dealing with the fact that he has to take it easy from now on. But enough complaining...

I have three weeks left in New Bedford and I hope to make the most of it. I haven't been able to see any friends or spend hours at the bookstore like I usually do because of the blizzard. Come on New England, give me a fucking break! I want to waste my day driving around aimlessly, and spending hours browsing at Baker Books. Do not deny me this! I have had enough of you already!